The winding road that I called “Life”

Okay, I admit that it was what I wanted all along..but notice "it was", past tense!!!In case you are wondering what I’m babbling about, I always wished I was that kind the girl where guys can just come to me and feel comfortable about all those conversations.you know..the "best girl friend of the guy type" The type which the girlfriends all feel envy and intimidated by their company…??? Well, I think it’s not that great afterall..not when the guys start treating you like really an ol’ pal, so comfortable around that they don’t watch what they do nor filter anything that comes out from their mouths before saying it to you…just because they think you’re okay with it! I only wish i could still mantain that kind of frienships with guys but also wish they would filter things through their head first before assuming I’m all cool for it.

The battle of both sexes could go on and on and on.Believe me I’m all for equality and all that but there are certain things I do believe males are just meant to do,mainly because due to manners and that we, females are females, thus we do think, see and behave differently.For example, I do think it’s really a gentleman thing to do if a guy opens the door or offers a seat for a lady. Even if the lady is a partical sort of person, no matter how much the she complaints ’bout wasting money on such things(flowers,gifts, etc..)she will be secretly loving every minute of it when she is given by a guy. Men might see us, females as complicated and fussy creatures, but hey, we are women, we have the rights, entitled to change our minds on things, to be fussy and complicated..(just because we like to think things in a deeper sense doesnt make us complicated.)

Even in terms of who should be making the first move to pursue a relationship, I do still prefer the guys make the moves(though there are some fearless females I know who make the moves).However, I guess things like that is really up to individuals..I’m abit of traditional sort of girl who deep deep down in my heart, I wish fairytales are real. But what I’m trying say is that if only guys could be more intune with their sensitivity, they will see that we, females aren’t that complicated after all..

Parents went to genting yesterday and left me fully in charge of the house for 2 days..a friend supposed to stay over last night but bailed out last minute.However she will be making up for it today..so I’m having 2 ppl to keep me accompany tonight so i wont be so bored like yesterday..It been really interesting to find out last night that the house is so different without my niece around (She is back with her parents until mine comes back from genting).it been a very long time since i get to have my own space like yesterday.

Been doing some thinking lately bout my age..I dont feel like 23.I looked at the ppl around me, near my age is having such an active social life, in relationships, marriage..and here I am, still single and not really desperate to be in a relationship.Should I be wondering why?!Should i start looking?Is being in a relationship at around 20’s should be a norm thing to do?Am I missing out something?i really wonder…I do wish time will go slow.At a blink of an eye, I’m 23 and not 16..my last recall best memories are that age..maybe 18…or maybe 12?Indeed confused.

Yesterday the company I working for had a scavenger hunt event at the Zoo Negara. I was in a team named the Tapirs, I think it’s cute considering it is very patriotic kinda way since they could only be found mostly in Malaysia or Indonesia. Today im very tired, most of the ppl in my dept are anyways..but hey we work for living so yes..life gotta keep moving. I’m glad to say that I think our Zoo did upgrade abit  of themselves..There is a lot more animals around to see, however I do think they might need to pay abit more attention to the big cats..they do look abit small to me.

My fren’s blog, christa mentioned she saw 3R on Tv3 that day and yes..I too saw myself and agree with the topic 3R showed. It’s indeed a good feeling when we girls could find a guy fren who are just so comfortable with you and treats u like a true fren and knows they have no other intentions for just being your fren. But it gets complicated when one of you start having some feelings towards each other and you try to ignore that feeling ‘coz you know it might just ruin the friendship you have. It’s hard to be cool bout it..I think everyone been through this scenario.

Greetings to all my earthling frens!Since so many of you ppl have blogs, i guess i will give it a try..it’s like a online diary except i guess it’s for people to read.Before further adue(pls correct me if im wrong..i don’t know how to spell that),alittle intro of what I’ve been up to, Im now currently working for HSBC HDPM in Cyberjaya. It’s not my field but i guess we can always learn something new anyways.

I think once you started working,you have lots of things to learn and to face everyday..Sometimes you get one of those funny moods that u are so giddy about and sometimes one of those days where you think everyone around u is so insensitive.Yesterday I was in the mood that i think everyone around me at work being insensitive..thus I wasn’t the bubbly girl that i so often ppl think i was and kept a bit quiet at times(ppl say im quite noisy at work:P) I didnt know i have such a great impact in other ppl’s life until today.It turns out that my colleagues notices and asked what about my unusual behavior. They wish i wasnt like that ‘coz apparently I bring joy to their work atmosphere.(Still unconvinced, "Whatever").Today Im sort of surprised by one of my colleagues. Actually he is like a brother to me..though I have always complained how he often bullies me and so un-gentlman, but after today i guess he really a great brother and fren..In his weird sweet kinda way i guess today he wanted to tell me that he cares and wanted me to be always happy, he decided also to give me a surprise gift. Im really touched by how he presented his gift.It might means nothing to him but for me, it’s something.I didnt know how seriously he take that in nor anyone i know who would do such thing for me, just to tell me to be happy..Im truely is touched and in a way i guess all my faith been restored back in people in the world..there are still nice people out there.thanks bro if u read this.