The nights are long.
The days so sad.
Not knowing what we lost,
Not knowing what I had.
I think of you for hours.
Your lips I just can’t kiss.
You’re the one I want.
You’re the one I’d miss.
Although we talk of friendship,
I always think of love.
Hoping we could have more,
Not just a friendly shove.
You tell me of your problems
I listen with open ears.
I’d like to tell you mine,
But I’ll always have fears
You smile at the things I do
No matter how stupid they were
You laugh…
Should I take it as an insult?
Or maybe I should feel honored
Because I was able to make you happy!
There were ups and downs
For both you and I
You would try to cheer me up
When I was down
And I shall do the same
By placing myself in your shoes
I have ways to cheer others
Even though by subconsciously
To me it is always about you
I will do anything for your smiles, your laughs
Your happiness.
Throughout my life, till now I have been searching for the question, “Why are we inside, afraid of relationship?” I won’t say I have found the ANSWER, but there is one which leaves me satisfy with it…at least it leaves me mind pondering. A quote from one of Ally McBeal’s episodes, “I have a friend who refuses to get a pet because he says in the end they die and it’s just too hard. Maybe it’s the same with relationships.” What do you think of that? Perhaps that’s the half truth of an answer? I know most people would think so, as sometimes relationships don’t last. People are afraid of that, because when that happens, someone will definitely be getting hurt…and that the pain would be just too much to bear. So that’s why I think relationships are like having a pet…because when we are having one, affections towards each other will be developed. Every living thing will leave away at sometime in life, thus we will be sad when that time comes and will have the urge to try preventing that “hurt” from happening in future. Those who longed for companionship and love will risk and try again. However there will be others who will build wall around them. It’s a battle of loved and be loved.
Sometimes we come about an empty room
That brings us back to the past,
Bringing us back to some memories
Memories which can’t put aside,
Hanging on as long as time lets us.
Sometimes life can get you down
It’s so confusing
There are so many rules to follow,
And I feel it because I’m running
Away in my mind.
There are times feelings and emotions
Are better left upon the shelf.
Greetings..many things happened these days.Been in a dumpster mood lately..maybe bcoz i gotten transfered to another team at work and havent quite able to adjust to new situation yet..but im getting there..slightly better now..its hard to learn 2 things at once, considering my old team process has so many things to learn than this new one, making me having to constantly updating myself with both processes.Another reason for this odd mood is that maybe there are just certain things in life that i see now that seem so meaningless and unfair to me, which drives me to the edge abit..So if these days i start sending off some other blogs that seem abit dark..bear with me..u dun have to read them if u do not wish to..i just need to an outlet express myself.
Ever heard of the chinese phase " ho sum pei lui pek" means do good but the lighting strikes u anyway?Well, that’s what been happening in my life and i have decided not to allow myself to be strike anymore.People can be so mean at times and childish..I’m so done with being nice to people who doesn’t deserve my friendship.Narrow-minded people and stubborn people are the worst kind of human race.There is truely no cure for them unless they realised their flaws and decided to change it.
Throughout the years, lessons learnt.I will try to be sensible about things, depending on circumstances. However I have decided not be a door mat for people. If I think things have gone too far and unbearable, I will first ask myself these questions;Should I tell the person off, tell them that their attitudes are not acceptable and that my honestly is truely based with good intention that I wish them not to repeat the mistakes on other people nor time.And how important of their friendship to me?If they ain’t cool ’bout it, then should i be sad and grief upon our potentially ruin friendship?or maybe theiy ain’t worth my friendship?If u are encountering things like this, pls ask yourself these questions.If it helps, Im glad it helps and I wish you all the best in things:)
